Reflections on a day

I like what the word 'reflections' conjures up for me...in fact I like the idea of self reflection a lot and do it regularly as part of my lifestyle.

Tranquil Ha Long Bay Vietnam

Take today for instance, I had an appointment about a prospective job, I had thought yes, great I could do with the extra money right now. Not thinking for one minute that I might have to re adjust my plans for the entire year as a result of this meeting.

When I left this morning I had a plan basically for the rest of this year. I thought I'd work for a few months, set off back down to the Sunshine Coast for a 2 month house sit in a lovely multi level home in Peregian Beach, then flit off over to Bali and participate in the Writers and Readers Festival in Ubud and then stay on for a couple of months to see how I'd enjoy living a life there.

Well that was this morning, tonight the house sit is off, the job will take priority for 12 months and if I'm lucky I'll get 2 or 3 weeks later in October for a quick jaunty over to Bali, minus the Writers and Readers Festival AGAIN!!!

But back to reflecting...usually it's something I can take my time thinking about, I mean by it's very nature reflecting is about taking your time, thinking things through, going over this and that, considering options, contemplating outcomes and eventually coming back to reality with a clear picture of what has taken place, what needs to be done or which direction to take....yeah right not today though!

A secret cove within Ha Long Bay Vietnam

For some reason when I was asked to make a commitment or walk away from the job today, I took about 5 minutes and rolled what might have taken me hours or days to consider into one short, sharp and clear decision...I would take the job. Plans?  what plans?  was my next thought that I quickly threw away as it just wasn't worth thinking about in that moment. I don't do disappointment well and now wasn't the time to start loosing myself in such a debilitating thought pattern. Bigger things were afoot here, I was sure of that.

Something strong was at work here, a force greater than I, my intuition kicked in, 'seize the moment Gayle' I heard that voice of knowing within me urging and so it came to pass that I now have a new plan and that's all about work...far out brussell sprout, who would have thought!

Speeding across Ha Long Bay

So on reflection I'm thinking to myself, 'congratulations girl' not being big on commitment, being put on the spot and challenged, yes challenged to make a decision right here and right now and I said YES, this deserves to be celebrated.

And in the celebration of my life, standing on the edge of a great lake looking into the deep dark pool that holds my future....full of potential and the promise of what may be an entirely different journey, I feel I'm being blessed, being given a great opportunity and what the outcome of that may be, is a mystery that I am willing to embrace.

I don't know what the future holds, I don't really care at this moment, I'm happy to let it unfold and take me to who knows where. And despite the obvious disappointment of not having that wonderful house sit, not seeing my children for longer than I had planned and not participating in the writers festival that was so big on my horizon, I'm content in the new direction I seem to have embarked upon today.

The journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step...............

The beautiful and serene Lake Eacham Far North Queensland